Poor me.

It has been a very long grey winter.  And finally the sun is shining.  And what am I doing?  sitting in my house with all the windows shut.

In the outside world, I can see people walking their dogs, their children, and mowing their lawn.  I am a jealous person by nature, so I feel envious.  I try to be happy for others, and thankful that not everyone's face turns into a puffy mess, their eyes don't all water and burn, their sinuses don't plug up, and that their lungs don't feel like they are going to collapse when they go outside. Its not always easy.

Every once in a while I can sort of remember what it is like to feel the warmth sun on my face. But for now I will just sit here, in my house, starring out the window, pretending.  The air conditioner is on, even though it is not even hot enough for the air conditioner. And I will sit here and wait....until July to go outside.

This is what happens when you are allergic to grass seed, and live in the G.S.C.W or the "Grass Seed Capitol of The World." Okay I made up that acronym. Every June, when the sun FINALLY comes out, this is what I have to look forward to.  For at least three weeks.

But I am not suffering alone. In fact, half of Eugene is suffering.  When I do run from the house to the car and manage to get myself into a store, I see people everywhere with the same puffy eyes.who were all brave enough to attempt to go out of their houses as well.  We all commiserate together.  And I remember that common sufferings bring people together.